A piece of me in cyberspace to record down my thoughts, interests and the words I usually never get to say
the wind past your shoulder; the light in your eyes; the faith that illuminates your soul.
Ask me anything
I’m starting to question my state of mental and emotional being.
A friend passed a remark ‘why u look so sad?’ I replied ‘huh, i look sad? i’m just not smiling!’
*makes ridiculous smiley face*
-Sweeping statement. Maybe my face is just screwed up like that LOL.
At work the day before a visitor frm Malaysia said ‘I like your smile. You have a nice smile like you’re always happy gitu.’
-Again sweeping statement. Of course I have to be cheerful looking as a worker in the service sector dude.
Ok so usually I wouldn’t take such things too much into consideration since they’re just passing remarks so to speak. But really. When I look into the mirror sometimes, I don’t even know myself.
Am I really turning into one of those people who hide their sadness behind smiley faces? I mean I know I do that sometimes but I’m just worried that I get so used to it that it becomes a part of me. Which feels so pathetic. I don’t even know who I’m trying to kid anymore it looks like the joke’s on me. Somewhat.
It’s the same when people say ‘Oh God, you’re totally an extrovert!’ and I go ‘uhh no I’m totally an introvert excuse me’. Shouldn’t I stop questioning myself right here right now by the end of this paragraph?
God. This wave of confusion that befalls upon me should just be damned.
Ok I should just shut up and sleep.